For the first time in my life, I have more clothes in my closet that DON’T fit me than clothes that DO.
There, I said it.
I’m gaining weight. Lots of it, to be exact. I see pictures of myself and realize that my chin has found another chin friend to keep her company. In addition to my chinny-chin-chin becoming fatty-fat-fatter, I am also growing a belly that could earn me a gig stunt-doubling for Santa Claus.
I have no motivation, no willpower, no ambition when it comes to weight loss anymore. I was excited to join Weight Watchers at work, and I quit after just a few weeks. I just wouldn’t stick to the plan. I absolutely did not possess the ability to tell myself “HELL, NO!” when the junk food was staring me in the face.
Money wasted, and pants getting tighter.
When I get ready for work in the mornings, I now have to weed through a lot of clothes that are too tight, and am down to just a few things that are comfortable and don’t threaten to bust open in Incredible Hulk-like fashion.
It’s depressing, but I still cannot get the motivation to just DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
What will it take? Crossing the 200 pound threshold? I have no excuses other than to say I have not made it a priority. I have an elliptical and treadmill in my basement right next to a television with satellite service, a DVD player and a VCR. I can watch TV or movies while I exercise! Both machines have a plug-in for my iPod so I can listen to music, too! I have exercise balls, hand weights, a dozen or so exercise DVDs. I have a Wii Fit and a yoga mat. AND NOT A SINGLE ONE OF THEM HAVE BEEN USED IN FOR-EVAH.
But seriously, the first thing I do when I get home from work is plop down on the couch after finding something to snack on. And obviously, THATS not working for me.
Once again, 2010 will be year I decide to change. A year I decide to be healthy, reverse the damage I have done to my body. A year I decide to take better care of myself. My motto for 2010 is
Healthy Again in 2010
I want to be healthy. Healthy in mind, body and spirit, so the term “Healthy” really applies to a lot of things in my life, not just my physical health. But HOW DO I MAKE THAT HAPPEN? I have a whole list of health & weight-related goals I want to accomplish as part of my 1,001 Day Project:
Run a 5k
Complete the Couch to 5K program
Avoid fast food for one month
Make 10 new meals.
Find “that dress” I’ve been hanging onto, and FIT INTO IT.
Complete 30 consecutive days of “The 30-Day Shred”
Get a physical
Try one of my exercise DVDs I haven’t even opened yet
Try a new vegetable or fruit.
Take a walk with one or both of my daughters
Go for a bike ride
Achieve 16 weeks of Weight Watchers meetings
Get my BMI out of the “overweight” category
Get to my goal weight
Obviously, every single one of these are realistic, DO-ABLE goals. I know I can do them. I know my body is physically able to do all of them. I have a realistic goal weight in mind, and it means losing about 46 pounds. It’s not THAT bad.
But I’m just not feelin’ it.
How do I get myself motivated? How do I stay strong? How do I keep from becoming a future contestant on “The Biggest Loser”?
Advice please! How do you fit exercise and healthy eating into your schedule?
